number 12
blah blah blah. two weeks from today i start school. i am really not looking forward to the bedtimes, and the waking up early four days a week. nor am i looking forward to the papers, the exams, the navigating of the parking lots, and such and such. i wish summer had autumn weather. im excited that i’ll look cute again when i leave the house. the summer weather and i do not coincide well, so walking outside and seeing that my hair stays straight will put a smile on my face. as cliche as this may seem, i will miss the freedom of summer so much. the ability to just go out without having to worry about school the next day. it sucks so much knowing that that will all end in a matter of fourteen days.
this summer has touched my heart, and has made something quite obvious. but i cannot tell you because it’s a secret. so for the next two weeks i’ll hopefully be galivanting around the island, having a good time, and causing mischief. so today, i went out with my two friends kaitlyn and dani. we went to the mall and target. it was down-pouring today, almost monsoon like. i wore my new rain boots and a hoodie because i didnt feel like carrying around an umbrella and i didnt feel like walking around with wet feet. i got to the mall, and these girls walking behind me are making fun of my rain boots saying that they should only be worn in the fall and spring. hey bitch, when the fuck did rain become seasonal? at least my feet are warm and dry. your ruined hollister flip flop says quite the opposite of that.
i am really going to miss staying up during the serene summer nights. i only have four days of school, not too bad. but some of my best friends go away again in about ten days. as upset as i am, i know that this is what they need to do for themselves and i have two specific best friends here; that’s all i need. this summer flew by, and so much as happened. i just cant get over it hence why i keep bringing it up. when i think about how my life was a year ago, i have to take a step back and ask myself, “when the hell did that happen?” i am about to start my sophomore year in college for christ’s sake. a year ago i just graduated from high school, and had such a vague perception of the world. i have changed so much; physically and mentally. i need to stop eating so much junk, and start going to the gym again. but people have told me my face has become prettier? about that… and i feel so strong willed now. i have so much criticism towards everything and naturally i am still as opinionated as ever. some of my co-workers have recently expressed that being as opinionated as i am is an unattractive quality in a friend. “well i guess we arent friends.” :]
after a few physical changes to myself, i’ll finally be content. wow. that’s a pretty personal statement to make via tumblr. whatever. the whole point of a blog is to say what’s on your mind. is it not?
-rachel.
