i am not superman.
over the past month, i have learned that just because i am young, i am not invincible to the evils that inhabit the world; more specifically to the evils that penetrate the human body itself. it could all be worse, and i am extremely fortunate, however my own body did this to itself. i cannot seem to get over the fact that something that is the size of a chick-pea can give the rest of your body such a huge problem. it really just baffles me and re-assures my appreciation and inquiry about the human body.
i am nineteen years old and up until recently i never would have imagined that evils such as these would be found in my body. even though i consider myself lucky that this can be taken care of with the miracles of modern day medicine, i must admit that i have been losing sleep these past few nights. i lay in bed and wonder what my body will be able to fight off forty, fifty, sixty, seventy years down the road. how will this effect me fifteen years from now? will this be a concern for the rest of my life? is this genetic? i have tried telling my friends and loved ones as little as possible to keep the status quo because i am not some pity case and never will be.
it’s funny. after everything i have been through so far, and looking at what i am going to be going through during the course of january, i never thought in a thousand life-times that my enemy would become the person whom i rely on the most.
