January 2012
1 post
i'm singing lady gaga...
“…caught in a bad romance.”
of all of the songs to sing, i choose this one. i’m intelligent.
December 2011
3 posts
friends?
i’m truly realizing a lot of things about life during this time in my life. i’m realizing that people never stay the same and that you can’t have a solid sense of reliability with someone. and it’s funny. people that were insignificant in my life have come to my side more than people whom i trusted the world with. it’s so bad, it’s past the point of regret....
i am not superman.
over the past month, i have learned that just because i am young, i am not invincible to the evils that inhabit the world; more specifically to the evils that penetrate the human body itself. it could all be worse, and i am extremely fortunate, however my own body did this to itself. i cannot seem to get over the fact that something that is the size of a chick-pea can give the rest of your body...
only eleven days folks.
yes, only eleven days left until school is over. there are only three days of actual classes left, and i am busy with so much other crap so it really wont be that bad. over the past few weeks the following have been complete:
all of my transfer application bull-crap.
my humanities research paper.
my modern world history paper.
my mass media final, as well as the class.
throughout these next...
November 2011
6 posts
pandora
currently updating my pandora. just got done with some homework, story of my life, and the song that just came on is making me forget about my papers, school, work, transfer applications, and what not. christmas is right around the corner and i am beyond excited. normally around this time of the year i feel really lonely but this year i dont. this is going to be a good week.
only two days of...
yo.
finally updating my tumblr. i forgot the password to my account so i was too lazy to go through the process of obtaining a new password. it is a friday night and i wish i was in the city right now seeing we came as romans and destroy rebuild until god shows. but instead i am sitting on my bed working on my transfer applications and figuring out my schedule for the next week. i register for my last...
October 2011
1 post
sleep.
so all I want to do is sleep. every sunday night I have a great deal of difficulty falling asleep. I’ll give it one more try. sweet dreams all.
September 2011
1 post
in the past month...
wow. i have been missing in action for the past month. i am back in school and it is consuming my life. when i have free time my friends are not able to hang out. when my friends want to hang out i am either at school or at work. story of my young life. most people hear, “oh you’re a history major. that isnt that hard why are you complaining about the amount of work that you...
August 2011
9 posts
this weekend...
yes, i have deviated from calling my posts “number _.” hopefully that illustrates to all of you how pissed off i am. hurricane irene is supposed to hit us sometime late tonight and finish sometime during sunday afternoon. get with the program people, we live on long island. the water is too cold for a hurricane to survive over, and it will definitely be a category one hurricane and...
I just made the biggest mistake. what is going on with me?
number 12
blah blah blah. two weeks from today i start school. i am really not looking forward to the bedtimes, and the waking up early four days a week. nor am i looking forward to the papers, the exams, the navigating of the parking lots, and such and such. i wish summer had autumn weather. im excited that i’ll look cute again when i leave the house. the summer weather and i do not coincide well, so...
“i’ve never felt so old and lonely as i felt when i was young and in love.”
number 11.
haven’t tumbled in quite some time. oh boy, this will be a long one. three weeks of my life in one post. cracked my knuckles and i am ready to go.
two weeks ago, i went to vans warped tour. it was fucking incredible. it also happened to fall on the hottest day of summer 2011; 106 degrees outside. now, combine that with no shade, water costing $5.00 a bottle, and thousands of sweaty, smelly,...
July 2011
6 posts
“expierence is a brutal teacher, but you learn. my god, you learn.”
– c.s. lewis
number 10.
“you’re like the cold december snow in the warm july sun.”
still drowning myself in city and colour. for those of you who have not allowed your ears to indulge in this beautiful sound, you are cruel. soothing does not even come close to describing it. so yesterday i went to the beach for the first time in over a year and it was great. my friend and i had a lot of fun chilling...
number 9.
i have a feeling by the end of the summer i will not have any friendships from my “high school click” of friends. in high school i wasnt just friends with the same group of people, but these people were the friends that i hung out with every weekend. blah blah blah. it is like they all worship this one person and i see nothing worth worshiping. i like the path that i am headed down in...
number 8.
lately everything just sucks. it is as if all of the forces in the world have teamed up and formed this alliance against me. i’m tired, and i am weak. i can no longer fight against them. all i can do is accept my life as it is and learn from it. stupid cliche line. so last friday i went to the mall with my friends and we saw someone from my past. let’s put it this way, i would rather...
June 2011
11 posts
number 7.
today is my last gym class. FINALLY. holy shit that took forever. well, only a month. but as i have stated before i am beyond ecstatic that i will be getting my mornings back. and i will not be wasting gas driving to and from school monday through thursday every week. i am laying in my bed right now exhausted. exhausted to the point where my eyes are burning but i need an outlet right now. just...
“I ask you to judge me by the enemies I have made.”
– Franklin Delano Roosevelt
number 6.
i’m exahusted from the graduation festivities that have taken place over the course of the past two days. i am so proud of my friends who are out of high school and out in the real world with me. to my dismay however, a solid 98% of them are going away to school in two months. that only means this summer will go by fast and i have to make my time with them truly count. my gym class finally...
“yet panics in some cases have their uses. they produce as much good as hurt....”
– Thomas Paine
number 5.
for the past week there has been a bullfrog outside my bedroom window trying to get lucky. give it a rest please because i need to get some sleep. nothing like two a.m. tumbling. is that even what you call it when you are adding to your tumblr? well that is what i will refer to it as from now on. one year ago i was preparing for graduation and prom. watching all of my friends do it all this year...
number 4.
blah blah blah so bored. once again i have work tomorrow. and then two days off. then back for another sixteen hour week. i feel like i work so much and i hardly get payed anything. so i am going to vans warped tour this year and i am stoked. like i cannot make you fathom how excited i am to go. spending the day with my friends, music from some of my favorite bands all day; yeah i think it is...
number 3.
once again i have the answer to a question that has been eating me alive for months. i am not too happy with the answer but i guess that’s the way things have to be. i must learn that i should never compare myself to someone else, because that does nothing but question why i am even here; alive. i’m always told that the things worth most in life are worth fighting for. and i mean a...
number 2.
it is summer vacation so everything should just fall into place right? yeah okay. i have been feeling so lonely lately. it’s difficult to explain though. i want company, but when i have people around me i want to be alone again. except around a few people. these people i need to keep me stable and secure. i wish one person could just understand how much they mean to me.
for the past two...
“it’s disheartening because i know we are capable of vision.”
number 1.
so yeah. my friends talked me into getting a tumblr. not like im going to share anything of grave importance with the 3 trillion people around the world, but not going to lie this is kind of cool. my life is simple. full time college student, have a part time job, have the most incredible friends that people can only pray for, and my family is always here. i get lonely though because a good...